- We are officially moved into Cord's parents' basement. Pretty much. There's still a tiny bit of unpacking to do...
- For Thanksgiving we went to my parents' place. It was fun to see my side of the family.
- We went to the Festival of Trees a couple of weeks ago. Aria thought it was great for a little... then she decided she'd had enough.
- Aria had to get blood-tested to see if she has the same disease I have (HHT). We get the results back in 2-3 weeks. It was super upsetting for them to poke and prod her, especially since they couldn't find a good vein in her little arms so it took 3 separate tries.
- Little Aria turned 2 months old yesterday! I can't believe how quickly the time has gone! She is very good at holding her head up on her own, and she is crazy-vocal. It seems like every day she is figuring out new things to do with her voice. It is hilarious. She loves to be bounced and she loves looking at lights. She prefers to sleep right next to mom rather than in her pack-n-play. :/. Yeah... we're working on that.
- We went to our annual "friend Christmas party" at my friend Lindsay's house. It was super fun. Naturally, we had to take a picture of Aria and Aiden being the best of friends.
- Lastly, I've decided to start another blog. Maybe we should blame my OCD-brain, but I never know whether I should blog about my thoughts and feelings and opinions, or just provide an update of what's been going on with our little family. So, this blog will be the "events" blog, and my new one will be just me talking! (So don't feel like you need to read it :)
- We went to our annual "friend Christmas party" at my friend Lindsay's house. It was super fun. Naturally, we had to take a picture of Aria and Aiden being the best of friends.
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12.15.2013
Christmas Time
So, life has been crazy lately. I'll recap what's been happening.
11.10.2013
The Holidays Start WAY Too Early.
I went to Kohl's yesterday to get Aria a few things, and BAM, all the Christmas stuff is up. Come on guys, it's the beginning of November. Did we forget about Thanksgiving?? Apparently, because Pandora already has the 'Holiday' playlist up. On the plus side, this year they added 'Celtic Christmas'. Made my whole season.
Speaking of Aria, she is almost a month old! I can't believe how time has flown! I already miss her "newborn" look. She has grown so much already!
Isn't she so cute?? I certainly think so. :) The last couple days, she has been GRINNING at both me and Cord. It is the cutest thing ever.
We've been trying to get out of the house more so I don't go stir-crazy, so Aria and I went to her first "play date" at my friend Lindsay's house. She has a 3 year old and a nearly 2 month old, so that was fun :)
Aw! Best friends already! Or maybe something more???... Ha ha
It was my dad's 50th birthday this past week! Crazy! My mom threw him a big birthday party last night. We went to Maddox Steakhouse, and then had the whole family over to play "Minute-to-Win-It" games. It was super fun. Me and Cord were a team and we only won 1 of the 9 games. :/. Apparently we need to practice more?
Cord caught a cold this past week, so that's been scary. I am SO paranoid about my little 3 week old baby getting sick! So far so good though... knock on wood!
Speaking of Aria, she is almost a month old! I can't believe how time has flown! I already miss her "newborn" look. She has grown so much already!
We've been trying to get out of the house more so I don't go stir-crazy, so Aria and I went to her first "play date" at my friend Lindsay's house. She has a 3 year old and a nearly 2 month old, so that was fun :)
Aw! Best friends already! Or maybe something more???... Ha ha
It was my dad's 50th birthday this past week! Crazy! My mom threw him a big birthday party last night. We went to Maddox Steakhouse, and then had the whole family over to play "Minute-to-Win-It" games. It was super fun. Me and Cord were a team and we only won 1 of the 9 games. :/. Apparently we need to practice more?
Cord caught a cold this past week, so that's been scary. I am SO paranoid about my little 3 week old baby getting sick! So far so good though... knock on wood!
11.04.2013
Oh Crap, I Am Moving in 3 Weeks.
Don't ask me how. How do you pack up an entire apartment AND take care of a newborn?? I'm open to suggestions.
In other news, Aria is 3 weeks old now. We've also decided she has a milk allergy, so I have completely cut dairy out of my diet. It's a whole lot harder than it looks. But worth it, to have a happier baby.
Our Halloween wasn't too fun. It's far too time-consuming taking care of a newborn to do much of anything else.. I'm hoping I figure out the secret of doing ANYTHING else besides changing diapers, feeding, and holding a little baby. Ha.
In other news, Aria is 3 weeks old now. We've also decided she has a milk allergy, so I have completely cut dairy out of my diet. It's a whole lot harder than it looks. But worth it, to have a happier baby.
Our Halloween wasn't too fun. It's far too time-consuming taking care of a newborn to do much of anything else.. I'm hoping I figure out the secret of doing ANYTHING else besides changing diapers, feeding, and holding a little baby. Ha.
10.28.2013
2 Weeks Old Today!
Well, I don't have much to say besides this ha ha. I've been pretty much home-bound! We did get out today to Aria's two-week check up though. She weighs 9 pounds 8 ounces already! So she's growing quick... it's crazy!
Sadly, I've been too busy to put up our Halloween decorations this year. (Probably should have done that before Aria was born). To be honest, it doesn't feel like Halloween-time at all, which is too bad since it's one of my favorite holidays. We just haven't been able to do anything Halloween-ish at all this year! You can't exactly go to a haunted house 9 months pregnant, and can't take a newborn to one either. Oh well! We are going to carve pumpkins tonight, so maybe then it will feel more like Halloween. I hope.
Happy two weeks, Aria!
Sadly, I've been too busy to put up our Halloween decorations this year. (Probably should have done that before Aria was born). To be honest, it doesn't feel like Halloween-time at all, which is too bad since it's one of my favorite holidays. We just haven't been able to do anything Halloween-ish at all this year! You can't exactly go to a haunted house 9 months pregnant, and can't take a newborn to one either. Oh well! We are going to carve pumpkins tonight, so maybe then it will feel more like Halloween. I hope.
10.20.2013
Baby Aria
Well, she is finally here! I have been waiting so long to meet her. Here is the short version of her birth story, since no one wants to hear the gory details :).
Last Saturday night, I had the worst case of insomnia. I didn't get to sleep til 4:30. Needless to say, I didn't get up in time for our 9:00 church, but got up in time to get ready for Sacrament meeting. As soon as I got up at 10, I started having some really minor contractions. By the time we got to church, I decided I should time them. They were anywhere from 10-20 minutes apart. This went on through the afternoon. Finally that evening, we were supposed to go to Cord's parents' for dinner, but contractions were coming 8-15 minutes apart and getting more painful, so we stayed home. I was way hungry and unsure whether this was real labor, so I ate dinner anyways.
By 8:00 that night, they were becoming unbearable. Well, almost. Each one, I'd have to go lay on the bed and squeeze a pillow and die a little inside. It was at this time that I decided I for sure was getting an epidural. How people do natural childbirth puzzles me. Cord was great through the whole thing though. He made up stories and told them to me during each contraction. In the meantime I was eating ice cream bars. Maybe like 10 of them. Then my body all the sudden decided it only wanted water. It's amazing how your body knows what it's going to need. I think I had six water bottles in those few hours? Crazy.
So we're timing contractions and finally they are anywhere from 2-7 minutes apart. They tell you you're supposed to go to the hospital when they're 5 minutes apart, so we really had no idea what to do. We finally decided to head to the hospital at like... 1 or 2 in the morning.
They wheel me on up to labor and delivery, and check me out. This was probably one of the worst parts of labor. I was strapped to the monitors and laying on the bed and I couldn't get up to walk off contractions. Ugh. The nurse checked me to see if I was progressing (I was) and went off to call my doctor to see if they wanted to keep me. Another nurse came back and took me to my labor room! I was SO relieved! I did NOT want it to be a false alarm. We got an IV strapped on (Cord almost passed out) and then I politely asked when I may receive my epidural. She told me anytime! They were just waiting on the anesthesiologist. Luckily it was 3 in the morning so there was pretty much no wait. As soon as that thing was in, I felt so much relief. My body could finally relax. Cord called my parents, Sloan, and his parents.
The next million hours were a waiting game. I tried to sleep but couldn't. Sloan came down from Logan immediately and hung out with Cord and me. The staff decided I wasn't progressing fast enough so they game me a little Pitocin. Baby's heartrate didn't like that one bit. So they stopped the Pitocin. Then my doctor came and broke my water. Then my parents showed up. It was like a party. FINALLY that afternoon, I was feeling no pain, but I was feeling pressure. I told the nurse and she said it was a good thing. Meanwhile, all I was allowed to eat was ice chips and popsicles. I was getting to the point where I was DOWNING that ice. I still had not slept because I was too busy listening to my little baby's hearbeat, and anytime it sped up or slowed down it stressed me out. The nurse announced around 1:30 that we were ready to push, and she was going to go call my doctor. He showed up pretty much immediately, I sent everyone out of the room except Cord, and after about 20 minutes, she was out! Baby Aria was born at 2:30 pm. (Yes people, that's 28 hours of labor right thurr.) It was the CRAZIEST feeling in the world. I think I cried a little, and Cord definitely cried. Baby was a bad baby, and she pooped in the womb, so the first thing they had to do when she was out was clear out her airways. The whole time they were doing all that newborn stuff, I couldn't keep my eyes off her. The first thing I noticed was how much HAIR she had! She was beautiful! And nearly 9 pounds! Cord got to hold her first, and he was so cute with her. Finally I got to hold her and nurse her. Then they told me she had a fever so they had to take her away. I almost cried. Cord went with her and I was left alone wondering what was going on with my baby and there was nothing I could do about it. Finally they wheeled me into my postpartum room, and then I had to wait, wait, wait. They finally wheeled her in so she could be with me. They told us her temps were back to normal but they were doing bloodwork to test for infection.
Long story short, one of the cultures came back positive for strep B, but all her vitals were perfectly fine. So they decided it was probably a human error and redid the test, which made it so we had to stay in the hospital longer. :/.
But everything is fine now and being a parent is the craziest thing. I never thought I could love something as much as I love her. I would truly do anything for her. I went and ran errands a couple hours yesterday by myself and I missed her like crazy. Life is a constant whirlwind of diaper-changing, feeding, holding, baby-talking, burping, and rocking at all hours of the day and night, but I love it.
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Last Saturday night, I had the worst case of insomnia. I didn't get to sleep til 4:30. Needless to say, I didn't get up in time for our 9:00 church, but got up in time to get ready for Sacrament meeting. As soon as I got up at 10, I started having some really minor contractions. By the time we got to church, I decided I should time them. They were anywhere from 10-20 minutes apart. This went on through the afternoon. Finally that evening, we were supposed to go to Cord's parents' for dinner, but contractions were coming 8-15 minutes apart and getting more painful, so we stayed home. I was way hungry and unsure whether this was real labor, so I ate dinner anyways.
By 8:00 that night, they were becoming unbearable. Well, almost. Each one, I'd have to go lay on the bed and squeeze a pillow and die a little inside. It was at this time that I decided I for sure was getting an epidural. How people do natural childbirth puzzles me. Cord was great through the whole thing though. He made up stories and told them to me during each contraction. In the meantime I was eating ice cream bars. Maybe like 10 of them. Then my body all the sudden decided it only wanted water. It's amazing how your body knows what it's going to need. I think I had six water bottles in those few hours? Crazy.
So we're timing contractions and finally they are anywhere from 2-7 minutes apart. They tell you you're supposed to go to the hospital when they're 5 minutes apart, so we really had no idea what to do. We finally decided to head to the hospital at like... 1 or 2 in the morning.
They wheel me on up to labor and delivery, and check me out. This was probably one of the worst parts of labor. I was strapped to the monitors and laying on the bed and I couldn't get up to walk off contractions. Ugh. The nurse checked me to see if I was progressing (I was) and went off to call my doctor to see if they wanted to keep me. Another nurse came back and took me to my labor room! I was SO relieved! I did NOT want it to be a false alarm. We got an IV strapped on (Cord almost passed out) and then I politely asked when I may receive my epidural. She told me anytime! They were just waiting on the anesthesiologist. Luckily it was 3 in the morning so there was pretty much no wait. As soon as that thing was in, I felt so much relief. My body could finally relax. Cord called my parents, Sloan, and his parents.
The next million hours were a waiting game. I tried to sleep but couldn't. Sloan came down from Logan immediately and hung out with Cord and me. The staff decided I wasn't progressing fast enough so they game me a little Pitocin. Baby's heartrate didn't like that one bit. So they stopped the Pitocin. Then my doctor came and broke my water. Then my parents showed up. It was like a party. FINALLY that afternoon, I was feeling no pain, but I was feeling pressure. I told the nurse and she said it was a good thing. Meanwhile, all I was allowed to eat was ice chips and popsicles. I was getting to the point where I was DOWNING that ice. I still had not slept because I was too busy listening to my little baby's hearbeat, and anytime it sped up or slowed down it stressed me out. The nurse announced around 1:30 that we were ready to push, and she was going to go call my doctor. He showed up pretty much immediately, I sent everyone out of the room except Cord, and after about 20 minutes, she was out! Baby Aria was born at 2:30 pm. (Yes people, that's 28 hours of labor right thurr.) It was the CRAZIEST feeling in the world. I think I cried a little, and Cord definitely cried. Baby was a bad baby, and she pooped in the womb, so the first thing they had to do when she was out was clear out her airways. The whole time they were doing all that newborn stuff, I couldn't keep my eyes off her. The first thing I noticed was how much HAIR she had! She was beautiful! And nearly 9 pounds! Cord got to hold her first, and he was so cute with her. Finally I got to hold her and nurse her. Then they told me she had a fever so they had to take her away. I almost cried. Cord went with her and I was left alone wondering what was going on with my baby and there was nothing I could do about it. Finally they wheeled me into my postpartum room, and then I had to wait, wait, wait. They finally wheeled her in so she could be with me. They told us her temps were back to normal but they were doing bloodwork to test for infection.
Long story short, one of the cultures came back positive for strep B, but all her vitals were perfectly fine. So they decided it was probably a human error and redid the test, which made it so we had to stay in the hospital longer. :/.
But everything is fine now and being a parent is the craziest thing. I never thought I could love something as much as I love her. I would truly do anything for her. I went and ran errands a couple hours yesterday by myself and I missed her like crazy. Life is a constant whirlwind of diaper-changing, feeding, holding, baby-talking, burping, and rocking at all hours of the day and night, but I love it.
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10.02.2013
39 Weeks and Goodbye Zions
So I finally had my last day at work! It couldn't have come at a better time. Standing up for long periods of time and bending over were becoming pretty much impossible. I can't believe my days at the bank are over! I only worked there six years, after all.
I met SO many awesome people! And had a lot of really good times. I will definitely miss parts of working at Zions Bank!
In other news, I'm FINALLY a week away from due date! And I just couldn't be more ready. Sort of. The nursery is completely ready, the car seat is installed, and my hospital bag is packed and ready to go. Too bad my house still needs to be cleaned... oh well, I'm working on it. I have to do SOMETHING with all my free time this next week.
In other news, I'm FINALLY a week away from due date! And I just couldn't be more ready. Sort of. The nursery is completely ready, the car seat is installed, and my hospital bag is packed and ready to go. Too bad my house still needs to be cleaned... oh well, I'm working on it. I have to do SOMETHING with all my free time this next week.
9.25.2013
How You Know You're Just About Done Being Pregnant
- When you're wearing clothes you resemble Mr. Smee, because not even your maternity shirts cover your belly anymore.
- When turning over in bed becomes a battle with yourself; first you have to talk yourself into it, then you spend 5 minutes doing it.
- When you've been thinking you're lucky cuz you haven't gotten any stretch marks, then one day you look in the mirror extra close and realize it's because they're all on the underside of your stomach, which you totally can't see. :(
- When you know exactly how this baby needs to come out and you're more than willing to do it because you're just done with this pregnancy thing.
Anyways, happy 38 weeks to me. Two more to go!
9.18.2013
Full-Term Baby and a Baby Shower!
Well I am now officially full-term! Baby can come anytime she wants! Here is me, being full-term.
Kuzco is photo-bombing of course.
In the meantime, I am SO ready to be done being pregnant! I thought it was bad before. Now I am having lots of fun "practice" contractions, during which I can't breathe so well. The doctor says it's a good thing. Whatever.
Luckily for me, my last day of work is Friday. I am so ready to be done! I enjoy sleeping a lot and laying on the couch in an uncomfortable sort of way.
In other news, my awesome family threw me a baby shower the other week, at the delicious restaurant Leatherby's. Yum yum.
The cute blanket from my cousin's wife Alicia!
Don't worry, Sloan bought baby some Utah State socks.
AND she's super talented! She hand-stitched this blanket!
My mom is awesome! She got me a Minky blankie!
My cousin's wife Tiffany got me onesies rolled up like cupcakes! How cute!
My aunt, cousin, and grandma went in on a rug for the baby's room for me!
Here we all are!
In the meantime, I am SO ready to be done being pregnant! I thought it was bad before. Now I am having lots of fun "practice" contractions, during which I can't breathe so well. The doctor says it's a good thing. Whatever.
Luckily for me, my last day of work is Friday. I am so ready to be done! I enjoy sleeping a lot and laying on the couch in an uncomfortable sort of way.
In other news, my awesome family threw me a baby shower the other week, at the delicious restaurant Leatherby's. Yum yum.
9.04.2013
35 Weeks!
Well, only 5 weeks to go now! I truly can't wait. One, I can't wait to be done being pregnant. I'd rather do the first trimester all over again than survive this last month. I'm so tired all the time, my whole body aches, I've STILL got a lil' morning sickness going on, and depending on where Baby decides to hang out, things can get really uncomfortable! But mostly, I'm just ready to meet my baby! It's ok though, I want her to cook as long as she needs :)
I put in my notice at work! I have 2 1/2 weeks left! My last day will be September 20th. And then I'll have like... 2 weeks-ish til my due date! Yay!
Cord started fall semester, which he is just super thrilled about. He is taking sociology, some sort of art class, and geography. How fun. He is also still working away at L-3. He is such a hard worker! He gets home from a 10 hour day at work, goes to class, does homework, and STILL makes sure he helps me with dinner or laundry or whatever I need help with. I'm very lucky to be married to someone with such a great work ethic.
Cord started fall semester, which he is just super thrilled about. He is taking sociology, some sort of art class, and geography. How fun. He is also still working away at L-3. He is such a hard worker! He gets home from a 10 hour day at work, goes to class, does homework, and STILL makes sure he helps me with dinner or laundry or whatever I need help with. I'm very lucky to be married to someone with such a great work ethic.
8.19.2013
Oh What's New?
32 weeks! That means baby could potentially come in the next... 5-9 weeks. Ha. Can you tell I'm counting down??
Pregnancy is hard! And if you say it's not, you're wrong. Or I'm possibly WAY out of shape. Everything exhausts me! I stand up from sitting on the couch and I'm out of breath! And I'm getting desperate for fall temperatures. Desperate.
But it's worth it. I feel my baby move and remember that. It's crazy; she is now big enough that I can feel her actual body parts pushing against my stomach! How crazy! ( Still can't tell the difference between a foot and a knee and an elbow though...)
My friends Jamie and Lindsay threw me an awesome baby shower on Saturday! It was great. They totally went all-out and it turned out so cute! I have the greatest friends :)
Cord finally got a calling; he is going to be a ward missionary! Good job Cord.
And he starts school again next week. He pretty much had no break at all :(
Pregnancy is hard! And if you say it's not, you're wrong. Or I'm possibly WAY out of shape. Everything exhausts me! I stand up from sitting on the couch and I'm out of breath! And I'm getting desperate for fall temperatures. Desperate.
But it's worth it. I feel my baby move and remember that. It's crazy; she is now big enough that I can feel her actual body parts pushing against my stomach! How crazy! ( Still can't tell the difference between a foot and a knee and an elbow though...)
My friends Jamie and Lindsay threw me an awesome baby shower on Saturday! It was great. They totally went all-out and it turned out so cute! I have the greatest friends :)
Cord finally got a calling; he is going to be a ward missionary! Good job Cord.
And he starts school again next week. He pretty much had no break at all :(
8.16.2013
I Love Marriage
There, I said it.
If you didn't already know, the transition from being single and living at home to being married wasn't an easy one for me. In fact, I sort of hated it. And the issue was definitely with me, not Cord. I am horrible at change. Absolutely horrible at it. I pretty much cried myself to sleep every night and missed my parents and my dog and wondered what was wrong with me; why wasn't I the "norm" of living in newlywed marital bliss? It was a nasty shock to my system to have to account to someone else what bigger purchases I was making out of our joint account (monthly massages anyone)?? And learning to compromise where we kept what, like cleaning supplies, was ridiculously hard for me. And don't even get me started on sharing a bed with someone. I like my space! And I can't help it that sometimes I enjoy sleeping like a star.
Ok, you get the picture. To make a long story short, it took me a good... six months to adjust to the married life. We had to do some drastic stuff, like buy the same breed of dog that my parents had, but I FINALLY got used to it.
Now here we are, 1 year and 8 months later, and I can honestly say I love marriage. LOVE IT. I find myself daily thinking about how much I love living with my best friend. More than that, I love the commitment we have. It's so great to know that no matter what happens, I've got a partner in everything. No matter how hard work or school gets, or how stressful finances or just life becomes, I've got someone by my side. This has been especially awesome since I've been pregnant. When I have an emotional freak out or want to die because my back hurts so bad, Cord is the best ever. He has all the qualities that I lack. He is ten times more tolerant and understanding and sympathetic than I've ever been.
Enough mushiness. Ok, maybe a little more. Cord has treated my like a queen from day one. When we started dating, he never let me pay for anything. Not once. I think we'd been dating for a good 6 months before he let me pay for one date, and even then he argued. He spoiled me rotten while we were dating, and he spoils me rotten now. He spends WAY more than he should on birthdays and Christmases, he sends me flowers for no reason, he cleans the house without me asking, he writes me sweet notes on the bathroom mirror to wake up to, and a million other things. He's the best, ok? The end. Sorry for the mushy post :)
If you didn't already know, the transition from being single and living at home to being married wasn't an easy one for me. In fact, I sort of hated it. And the issue was definitely with me, not Cord. I am horrible at change. Absolutely horrible at it. I pretty much cried myself to sleep every night and missed my parents and my dog and wondered what was wrong with me; why wasn't I the "norm" of living in newlywed marital bliss? It was a nasty shock to my system to have to account to someone else what bigger purchases I was making out of our joint account (monthly massages anyone)?? And learning to compromise where we kept what, like cleaning supplies, was ridiculously hard for me. And don't even get me started on sharing a bed with someone. I like my space! And I can't help it that sometimes I enjoy sleeping like a star.
Ok, you get the picture. To make a long story short, it took me a good... six months to adjust to the married life. We had to do some drastic stuff, like buy the same breed of dog that my parents had, but I FINALLY got used to it.
Now here we are, 1 year and 8 months later, and I can honestly say I love marriage. LOVE IT. I find myself daily thinking about how much I love living with my best friend. More than that, I love the commitment we have. It's so great to know that no matter what happens, I've got a partner in everything. No matter how hard work or school gets, or how stressful finances or just life becomes, I've got someone by my side. This has been especially awesome since I've been pregnant. When I have an emotional freak out or want to die because my back hurts so bad, Cord is the best ever. He has all the qualities that I lack. He is ten times more tolerant and understanding and sympathetic than I've ever been.
Enough mushiness. Ok, maybe a little more. Cord has treated my like a queen from day one. When we started dating, he never let me pay for anything. Not once. I think we'd been dating for a good 6 months before he let me pay for one date, and even then he argued. He spoiled me rotten while we were dating, and he spoils me rotten now. He spends WAY more than he should on birthdays and Christmases, he sends me flowers for no reason, he cleans the house without me asking, he writes me sweet notes on the bathroom mirror to wake up to, and a million other things. He's the best, ok? The end. Sorry for the mushy post :)
8.05.2013
Thank Goodness It's August
That means only 1 more month of summertime. Normally I like summer, but not this one. Cooler temperatures, please!
Cord and I got to go to a rodeo on Saturday with his family! It was fun. Except the part where both of our throats were swelling shut a little. NBD.
In baby news, only 10 weeks to go! We have her name narrowed down to two. We are going to wait to see her face to decide for sure though. And we are keeping the names secret! So don't ask! Ha ha jk. You can ask. I just won't tell you what they are. I had another ultrasound on Wednesday for growth purposes, and Baby Bailey is measuring right on track, and she's 3 1/2 pounds! That's so big to me! I really like her. I also have to do kick counts every day now (you have to feel 10 movements in 2 hours), which has been a breeze since she gets 10 movements in in about 10 minutes. Good job, you active little thing.
Cord and I got to go to a rodeo on Saturday with his family! It was fun. Except the part where both of our throats were swelling shut a little. NBD.
In baby news, only 10 weeks to go! We have her name narrowed down to two. We are going to wait to see her face to decide for sure though. And we are keeping the names secret! So don't ask! Ha ha jk. You can ask. I just won't tell you what they are. I had another ultrasound on Wednesday for growth purposes, and Baby Bailey is measuring right on track, and she's 3 1/2 pounds! That's so big to me! I really like her. I also have to do kick counts every day now (you have to feel 10 movements in 2 hours), which has been a breeze since she gets 10 movements in in about 10 minutes. Good job, you active little thing.
7.29.2013
My Grandma
My grandma was one of the most loving, giving, gentle people I know, so it's easy to see where my dad gets those traits. As I've grown older, I've heard more and more stories about the extraordinary life she lived. As a grandchild, sometimes you have a tendency to forgot that your grandparents had a long, full, often adventurous life before they ever met you. My grandma grew up on a farm doing a man's work. She married her first husband, a race car driver, and lost him 11 days later when he died during a race. Later she married my grandpa, who was in the Air Force, and during the Korean War, was told his plane was shot down and he was presumed to be dead. When she found this out she left to serve a mission for the LDS church. During her mission she found out he was actually a POW, and he stayed that way for 3 more whole years. Eventually he got to come home, and they were reunited. She had 3 sons, my dad being the youngest.
I was one of those lucky kids who, when their parents are both working, get to be watched by the grandparents every day, not normal childcare. And Grandma and Grandpa Millward babysat me, all day, from the time I was six weeks old til I was two and a half. My grandpa suffered cardiac arrest, and passed away while only in his sixties.
Even after my grandpa's death, my grandma and her sister Shirley watched me and Sloan and Garrett all the time. I can't ever remember having a babysitter. It was always Grandma who watched us. I used to love going over to her house for sleepovers, or just going over for a couple hours while my parents went on a date. I can still remember the imaginary games we'd all play together, and the adventures we'd have in my grandma's backyard. I remember her showing me around her garden, telling me what everything was, and how you could tell when it was time to pick it. Grandma and Shirley were always ready to play whatever our imaginations came up with.
Eventually Grandma and Shirley moved in to a small apartment together, unable to keep up with house and yard work anymore. After several years, Shirley unexpectedly passed away, and my grandma had to move to an assisted living center so she could have help with cooking and cleaning.
Her last two years of life were spent in Barton Creek. It was apparent that she really missed her sister, and it was hard for me to see her frustrated by her declining health. It got harder for her to walk on her own, and harder for her to remember things. The highlight of her day was a phone call from a child, or a note or visit from a grandchild. I took her to lunch each year on her birthday, and she would tell me all about the past on the farm, or about living in Germany, or about what was going on with this or that grandchild.
I think the hardest thing about her passing is that she's always been there, such a big part of my life. She was always at birthday parties and holiday get-togethers. And now, that's over.
I miss her, but at the same time I am happy for her. She has been separated from my grandpa for 22 years now, and after that much time, I think she was ready to see him again. Til the day she died, she wore her wedding ring, and that is such a powerful reminder to me of true love. I am so grateful for the knowledge I have that her spirit lives on, and I will see her again someday.
I love and miss you, Grandma. Can't wait to see you again.
7.22.2013
Random Stuff You Probably Didn't Want to Know
- My fish in my 10 gallon fish tank keep having babies. There are 3 generations of fish living in there now. And none of them are dying. Yikes.
- I avoid bending down as much as possible these days. It's really hard to get back up. If I drop something and don't absolutely need it, too bad. It stays on the ground.
- I like feeling my baby move, but it still weirds me out a little bit. Especially when she has freak-outs.
- Harley is an annoying dog to have around. I love her to death, but when I'm trying to get stuff done around the house, she follows me EVERYWHERE. And I mean everywhere. Like, right behind me. Always has to see what I'm doing. She gets in the way like crazy.
- My least-favorite job to do daily is make my bed. So lots of times it just doesn't happen.
- I really don't like sports at all, they bore me to tears, but I LOVE going to Real games. Me and Cord went to one this past Saturday and it was a blast. We lost, but it was still fun. If you haven't been to one, GO.
7.15.2013
Summer is Halfway Over!
Normally I'd be sad, but I'm getting exciting to meet the little miss swimming around inside me! Besides, I don't think I'll miss this particular summer too much; I think we've had too many days of 100 degree temperatures.
For my birthday in February, Cord got me a giftcard to Massage Envy for a 1-hour massage, and I've been holding off on using it for as long as possible. But now, the time has come. I am going on Wednesday to get a "prenatal massage", whatever that entails. But I can't even begin to tell you how excited I am. Everything on me aches. Especially my back and feet.
Other than that, life is pretty boring for us right now. Cord is still working away at L-3 and also doing military stuff and also doing school stuff, so he stays plenty busy. And I am trying to work as much as possible at Zions til I quit. It's the good life, I tell ya.
For my birthday in February, Cord got me a giftcard to Massage Envy for a 1-hour massage, and I've been holding off on using it for as long as possible. But now, the time has come. I am going on Wednesday to get a "prenatal massage", whatever that entails. But I can't even begin to tell you how excited I am. Everything on me aches. Especially my back and feet.
Other than that, life is pretty boring for us right now. Cord is still working away at L-3 and also doing military stuff and also doing school stuff, so he stays plenty busy. And I am trying to work as much as possible at Zions til I quit. It's the good life, I tell ya.
7.10.2013
A Diabetes Scare
Sooo... I had my doctor's appointment last week and had to do the glucose screening test. Basically you just drink a drink that tastes a lot like Hawaiian Punch. Not too bad. Then they draw your blood an hour later and your glucose level should be 140 or lower. Too bad mine was 174. Yikes. So then I had to go back on Monday and get my levels tested 4 times :(. The good part was, it was only a prick in the finger this time, not a blood draw 4 times. So I had to drink a sugar drink again but this time it was twice as strong. Ick. Almost threw it up. I failed one of my draws, but lucky for me, you have to fail two or more to be diagnosed with gestational diabetes. To celebrate, we went and got scones with lots of honey butter right afterwards. :)
Ummm other than that not much is new. Except I'm in my 3rd trimester now! Yippee. Almost done.
Ummm other than that not much is new. Except I'm in my 3rd trimester now! Yippee. Almost done.
7.01.2013
A Complaint Post
Ok, I'm entitled to one of these every once in awhile.
Dang you summer. I don't remember weeks at a time of 100 degree temperatures LAST summer. So why this one?? Did it have to be while I'm just starting my third trimester of pregnancy?
Dang you economy. Cord and I both have relatively good-paying jobs. On the condition that we actually go to work. L-3 told Cord to not even bother coming back to work til July 9th. They are just way short on work. And up until last week, I was getting shifts every day I was available. Now, not so much. 8 hours a week just isn't gonna cut it people! It seems Peak Time has just slowed down a lot now. So great! Lucky Cord is in the military and can go work on base a lot of these days.
Dang you anxiety. I'm at that point in my pregnancy where I should be feeling baby move every day, but she's small enough it's not the easiest thing. So last night it'd been a couple of days since I felt a good strong kick from her, so I finally freaked out and went to Labor and Delivery. As soon as the found her heartbeat with the doppler and strapped it to the place on my belly where she was hanging out, she started kicking me like crazy. She didn't like that pressure being put on her at all. Bad baby. Why couldn't you have gone kick-crazy an hour previously?
Life is good, though. Our nursery continues to come together, my pregnancy has been relatively easy (just a little back pain and fatigue, nothing I can't handle), we both still DO have jobs, our dogs are pretty cool, we found out we are most likely eligible for the VA home loan ($150 a month off the mortgage, anyone?), baby is healthy, the 4th of July is this week (I seriously get so excited I can't sleep at night), Cord is halfway done with summer semester and is still doing well, and I'm sure there are a lot of other great things I'm forgetting to mention.
Dang you summer. I don't remember weeks at a time of 100 degree temperatures LAST summer. So why this one?? Did it have to be while I'm just starting my third trimester of pregnancy?
Dang you economy. Cord and I both have relatively good-paying jobs. On the condition that we actually go to work. L-3 told Cord to not even bother coming back to work til July 9th. They are just way short on work. And up until last week, I was getting shifts every day I was available. Now, not so much. 8 hours a week just isn't gonna cut it people! It seems Peak Time has just slowed down a lot now. So great! Lucky Cord is in the military and can go work on base a lot of these days.
Dang you anxiety. I'm at that point in my pregnancy where I should be feeling baby move every day, but she's small enough it's not the easiest thing. So last night it'd been a couple of days since I felt a good strong kick from her, so I finally freaked out and went to Labor and Delivery. As soon as the found her heartbeat with the doppler and strapped it to the place on my belly where she was hanging out, she started kicking me like crazy. She didn't like that pressure being put on her at all. Bad baby. Why couldn't you have gone kick-crazy an hour previously?
Life is good, though. Our nursery continues to come together, my pregnancy has been relatively easy (just a little back pain and fatigue, nothing I can't handle), we both still DO have jobs, our dogs are pretty cool, we found out we are most likely eligible for the VA home loan ($150 a month off the mortgage, anyone?), baby is healthy, the 4th of July is this week (I seriously get so excited I can't sleep at night), Cord is halfway done with summer semester and is still doing well, and I'm sure there are a lot of other great things I'm forgetting to mention.
6.12.2013
I Know I'm Not a Mom Yet But...
I love my little baby so much already. I feel her kick pretty much every day now, and when I'm laying in bed trying to fall asleep and I feel her little kicks, I just have to smile to myself. She's quite the active little thing. And by the way, the ultrasound tech last week told me that she's so sure it's a girl, she'll buy the kid boy clothes if it turns out to be a boy. :)
So there's my cue to buy stuff! Don't worry, I'm not going TOO overboard. Just a car seat, stroller, and changing table are on the way!
Meanwhile, work is getting harder for me. It's exhausting me to stand for even four hours at a time, and I'm coming home now with horribly aching feet and some serious lower back pain. On the upside though, I haven't had to pop a Zofran in weeks. Goodbye nausea!
Cord's life is busy as ever. He is still doing summer school. Right now he's just got online English and psychology. He's working on orders at base this week as well.
And that's basically life right now. Doesn't get more exciting than that.
Oh, here's me 22 weeks along..
So there's my cue to buy stuff! Don't worry, I'm not going TOO overboard. Just a car seat, stroller, and changing table are on the way!
Meanwhile, work is getting harder for me. It's exhausting me to stand for even four hours at a time, and I'm coming home now with horribly aching feet and some serious lower back pain. On the upside though, I haven't had to pop a Zofran in weeks. Goodbye nausea!
Cord's life is busy as ever. He is still doing summer school. Right now he's just got online English and psychology. He's working on orders at base this week as well.
And that's basically life right now. Doesn't get more exciting than that.
Oh, here's me 22 weeks along..
6.03.2013
Halfway Done, Oregon, and Some Other Things
Wellllll I'm more than halfway done with my pregnancy. It's kind of a relief, and kind of scary! It's starting to hit me that I'll be a mom in 4 months! I'm starting to panic about getting everything done. Ha ha all I've got so far is a crib, and a couple pacifiers.
Me and Cord took a spontaneous trip to Oregon last weekend. We were wanting to go anyways this summer, and we both ended up with a four-day weekend, so we figured, why not? I'd rather travel when I'm NOT a huge whale yet, anyways. It was so fun. We found people to watch Kuzco and Harley, and took off on a 14 hour road trip! We stayed in Twin Falls the first night, then drove all day Friday til we got to Pacific City. Saturday we hung out at the beach and drove to Lincoln City to see Iron Man 3, then Sunday we drove to Tillamook to go to the cheese factory (best ice cream ever) and went to the beach a little more... then Monday we drove ALL THE WAY home. Yuck. But the trip was so fun. It was a much needed vacation. And we aren't planning to go on another trip til next fall when we take little child to Disneyland. I already can't wait.
Garrett has left on his mission! It's crazy!
And that's pretty much it, for now. I think.
Oh, here's me at 20 weeks pregnant..
Me and Cord took a spontaneous trip to Oregon last weekend. We were wanting to go anyways this summer, and we both ended up with a four-day weekend, so we figured, why not? I'd rather travel when I'm NOT a huge whale yet, anyways. It was so fun. We found people to watch Kuzco and Harley, and took off on a 14 hour road trip! We stayed in Twin Falls the first night, then drove all day Friday til we got to Pacific City. Saturday we hung out at the beach and drove to Lincoln City to see Iron Man 3, then Sunday we drove to Tillamook to go to the cheese factory (best ice cream ever) and went to the beach a little more... then Monday we drove ALL THE WAY home. Yuck. But the trip was so fun. It was a much needed vacation. And we aren't planning to go on another trip til next fall when we take little child to Disneyland. I already can't wait.
Garrett has left on his mission! It's crazy!
And that's pretty much it, for now. I think.
Oh, here's me at 20 weeks pregnant..
5.19.2013
Garrett's Mission Farewell
First off- good news! I found my camera charger, which means I can take pictures now. So that's exciting.
Garrett's mission farewell was today. It's crazy to me that he will be gone for two whole years! And he will never even know his little niece til she is almost two! But I'm very proud of him and know he is doing the right thing. His talk today was so great, it's so weird to see him all grown up!
We had family and friends over to my parents' afterwards, and I don't think I've ever seen so much food except for maybe at the Bailey get togethers.
Other than that, life is boring! I'm halfway done with my pregnancy (almost) and working full-timish, and Cord is crazy busy with school and work. And our dogs keep us plenty busy. So life is good!
Garrett's mission farewell was today. It's crazy to me that he will be gone for two whole years! And he will never even know his little niece til she is almost two! But I'm very proud of him and know he is doing the right thing. His talk today was so great, it's so weird to see him all grown up!
We had family and friends over to my parents' afterwards, and I don't think I've ever seen so much food except for maybe at the Bailey get togethers.
Other than that, life is boring! I'm halfway done with my pregnancy (almost) and working full-timish, and Cord is crazy busy with school and work. And our dogs keep us plenty busy. So life is good!
5.15.2013
Baby Girl!
Well, we found out we are having a girl! Most likely, that is. My doctor said he was not 100% sure, but I have my anatomy ultrasound on June 5, so by then we should know for sure. I am so excited! It is great to put a she to the littler wiggler inside me. I am feeling her move every couple days now, just a little. It's pretty exciting! I am 19 weeks along today; I can't believe I'm almost halfway done!
Sloan got married this past Saturday! It was awesome. I am very happy for her and Justin. And also jealous since they are in Disney World right now.
Here they are fresh out of the temple! So cute!
And another..
And here are me and Sloan!
Their reception and luncheon were fun too :)
In other news, Cord is back to work after his surgery. Poor guy has been in so much pain. He also started school which is always just thrilling in the summer. I am working every day now so that is fun for me.
Sloan got married this past Saturday! It was awesome. I am very happy for her and Justin. And also jealous since they are in Disney World right now.
Their reception and luncheon were fun too :)
In other news, Cord is back to work after his surgery. Poor guy has been in so much pain. He also started school which is always just thrilling in the summer. I am working every day now so that is fun for me.
4.15.2013
A Tried-And-True Diet
Looking to lose a couple extra pounds? I have just the thing. It's called pregnancy. Your appetite changes like crazy. You feel starving but 3 bites in you're totally full. Or just the thought of food makes you sick. Or you eat and then throw it all back up immediately. If you combine all these things you're bound to lose weight (which I have-9 pounds to be exact).
But seriously. I'm starting to worry a little. Shouldn't I be gaining by now?? I'm 14 weeks. The funny part is that even though I've lost all this weight, my tummy has definitely started to stick out. It's almost cute. Ha. Oh well. I guess the little nugget is still getting the nutrients it needs.
Ok I'm starting to freak out about becoming a parent a little. Why? Well I'm on a birth board and basically it's a bunch of pregnant women also due in October that clearly have way too much time on their hands. But they get on there and debate about EVERYTHING parenting-related. Will you breastfeed or formula-feed? Cloth or disposable diaper? Will you let them drink juice? Will you wake them up to feed them or let them wake up when they're hungry? Will they sleep in your room or in their own? I DON'T KNOW. Yikes. I don't know how to be a good parent! Ha ha. Wing it?
We cleared out the baby's room finally, so I guess that's my cue to start buying stuff? I don't know what to buy. I have no idea.
Also, apparently this is the week where Bambi's hearing has developed enough that heshe can hear my talk. This makes me feel like I should be singing lullabies. Or hymns. And stop jamming out to music in my car. What if the heshe hates it?? Ha ha I clearly have too much time on my hands to think.
Cord's hiring date got moved back a week because his background check hasn't come back yet, which made it so we had to push ultrasound appointment back to MAY 9. Wah! I don't want to wait that long! I was probably ridiculously upset about it for more than a minute. Hormones?
May is just an exciting month all around. Sloan's wedding, finding out the gender of the lil' nugget, attending Sloan and Garrett's endowments, sending Gar Gar off on his mish... lots of fun stuff.
But seriously. I'm starting to worry a little. Shouldn't I be gaining by now?? I'm 14 weeks. The funny part is that even though I've lost all this weight, my tummy has definitely started to stick out. It's almost cute. Ha. Oh well. I guess the little nugget is still getting the nutrients it needs.
Ok I'm starting to freak out about becoming a parent a little. Why? Well I'm on a birth board and basically it's a bunch of pregnant women also due in October that clearly have way too much time on their hands. But they get on there and debate about EVERYTHING parenting-related. Will you breastfeed or formula-feed? Cloth or disposable diaper? Will you let them drink juice? Will you wake them up to feed them or let them wake up when they're hungry? Will they sleep in your room or in their own? I DON'T KNOW. Yikes. I don't know how to be a good parent! Ha ha. Wing it?
We cleared out the baby's room finally, so I guess that's my cue to start buying stuff? I don't know what to buy. I have no idea.
Also, apparently this is the week where Bambi's hearing has developed enough that heshe can hear my talk. This makes me feel like I should be singing lullabies. Or hymns. And stop jamming out to music in my car. What if the heshe hates it?? Ha ha I clearly have too much time on my hands to think.
Cord's hiring date got moved back a week because his background check hasn't come back yet, which made it so we had to push ultrasound appointment back to MAY 9. Wah! I don't want to wait that long! I was probably ridiculously upset about it for more than a minute. Hormones?
May is just an exciting month all around. Sloan's wedding, finding out the gender of the lil' nugget, attending Sloan and Garrett's endowments, sending Gar Gar off on his mish... lots of fun stuff.
4.08.2013
I Survived
I survived the flu, I survived the constant throwing up thanks to the Tamiflu, and I even survived a normal work week through it all.
Cord has finally officially gotten hired on at L-3. I am so happy about this, because it means we can for reals get a house this fall! No more apartments for us! Anyways, his first day officially with the company is the 15th. Speaking of the 15th, still haven't done our taxes. That is my number one priority tomorrow.
Turns out Harley had all sorts of bacteria up in her digestive tract, so we had a fun trip to the vet to get her checked out and get some medicine. Luckily she's doing better now though.
I've spent the past couple days helping my house recover from me being sick for a week. Laundry and dishes had piled up like crazy, and our apartment became a health hazard. It's getting back to normal, though.
Cord has officially torn his ACL and is scheduled for surgery the last day of April. Now he is doing physical therapy and he just loves it.
We get to find out baby's gender on April 29! I can't wait. It will feel so much more real then, I think, when instead of saying, "It's making me fat," I can say "He/She is making me fat." And then we can also get more serious about naming.
Cord has finally officially gotten hired on at L-3. I am so happy about this, because it means we can for reals get a house this fall! No more apartments for us! Anyways, his first day officially with the company is the 15th. Speaking of the 15th, still haven't done our taxes. That is my number one priority tomorrow.
Turns out Harley had all sorts of bacteria up in her digestive tract, so we had a fun trip to the vet to get her checked out and get some medicine. Luckily she's doing better now though.
I've spent the past couple days helping my house recover from me being sick for a week. Laundry and dishes had piled up like crazy, and our apartment became a health hazard. It's getting back to normal, though.
Cord has officially torn his ACL and is scheduled for surgery the last day of April. Now he is doing physical therapy and he just loves it.
We get to find out baby's gender on April 29! I can't wait. It will feel so much more real then, I think, when instead of saying, "It's making me fat," I can say "He/She is making me fat." And then we can also get more serious about naming.
3.31.2013
I Guess I Should Have Gotten My Flu Shot...
I gotta say, you feel pretty dumb when the doctor asks you if you got your flu shot for the year (especially when you're pregnant) and you have to say no. Do you answer with a defiant "no"? A matter-of-fact "no"? A look-down-like-your-ashamed "no"? I can't remember which one I used, but I sure did feel dumb.
Especially when she started reading me the warnings of having influenza while you're pregnant. "An increased chance of mother's death." Fantastic. They recommend you take Tamiflu, which is a Category C pregnancy medication. Which means, as she explained, that they have tested the drug on animals, and the animals' babies had adverse effects to the drugs, such as spontaneous abortion, or serious birth defects. All the sudden I feel like I am playing big-kid decision-making. I didn't really like it. Cord called my OB on his cell (on a Friday night) to ask what to do. He told me definitely take the medication. Having a serious case of the flu is much worse.
So here I am now. And I think I am really blessed. Friday was the sickest I've been in a long long time. And I'm not just saying that. The doctor told me it would for sure get worse if it really was the flu (which it is since my test came back positive), but I've only felt better since Friday. Still not great, mind you, but better. Thank you Tamiflu? I'm also gonna give most the credit to a loving Heavenly Father that is looking out for me and little Bambi. My brother, dad, and husband gave me a priesthood blessing on Friday night, and since that blessing I have not run fever.
Now if only the Tamiflu was not making me so nauseated that I want to die... :)
Wellll that's pretty much been my week in a nutshell. Cord got an MRI done on his knee on Friday. His doctor thinks he's torn his meniscus, no bueno. If he has, he will most likely need surgery. Oh the dangers of playing soccer.
To add to our super fun weekend, Harley the dog was sick yesterday and today, so we (and by we I mean mostly Cord) got to clean diarrhea/vomit out of her cage every couple hours and then give her a bath.
When it rains it pours right? Needless to say I have had better Easters. The worst part is I bought a Disney egg dye kit and didn't even get to use it.
Especially when she started reading me the warnings of having influenza while you're pregnant. "An increased chance of mother's death." Fantastic. They recommend you take Tamiflu, which is a Category C pregnancy medication. Which means, as she explained, that they have tested the drug on animals, and the animals' babies had adverse effects to the drugs, such as spontaneous abortion, or serious birth defects. All the sudden I feel like I am playing big-kid decision-making. I didn't really like it. Cord called my OB on his cell (on a Friday night) to ask what to do. He told me definitely take the medication. Having a serious case of the flu is much worse.
So here I am now. And I think I am really blessed. Friday was the sickest I've been in a long long time. And I'm not just saying that. The doctor told me it would for sure get worse if it really was the flu (which it is since my test came back positive), but I've only felt better since Friday. Still not great, mind you, but better. Thank you Tamiflu? I'm also gonna give most the credit to a loving Heavenly Father that is looking out for me and little Bambi. My brother, dad, and husband gave me a priesthood blessing on Friday night, and since that blessing I have not run fever.
Now if only the Tamiflu was not making me so nauseated that I want to die... :)
Wellll that's pretty much been my week in a nutshell. Cord got an MRI done on his knee on Friday. His doctor thinks he's torn his meniscus, no bueno. If he has, he will most likely need surgery. Oh the dangers of playing soccer.
To add to our super fun weekend, Harley the dog was sick yesterday and today, so we (and by we I mean mostly Cord) got to clean diarrhea/vomit out of her cage every couple hours and then give her a bath.
When it rains it pours right? Needless to say I have had better Easters. The worst part is I bought a Disney egg dye kit and didn't even get to use it.
3.24.2013
On Smells and Almost Spring
Pregnancy is great. Except for all the bad stuff. One of my biggest complaints is how HORRIBLE everything smells. Combine that with queasiness and you have a recipe for disaster. It's the most random things too. Opening the fridge smells disgusting. One day my nose decided it HATED the smell of my vanilla deodorant, so now I use Cord's. Most recently, the smell of fish food makes me gag without fail. What?? Where is all this randomness coming from?
I finally reached the important milestone of throwing up. Luckily it's only been once. Congratulations to me. Also, I officially have a little bump that cannot be sucked in. I tried on maternity pants, which was a huge mistake, because now they're all I wear. Holy comfy. And as of Wednesday, I will officially be into my second trimester. 1/3 of the way done!
Sorry, Sloan, for the pregnancy stuff. :)
And may I just say that I am so excited for spring. I am excited for Sloan's wedding! And warm weather and cute summer clothes. The end.
I finally reached the important milestone of throwing up. Luckily it's only been once. Congratulations to me. Also, I officially have a little bump that cannot be sucked in. I tried on maternity pants, which was a huge mistake, because now they're all I wear. Holy comfy. And as of Wednesday, I will officially be into my second trimester. 1/3 of the way done!
Sorry, Sloan, for the pregnancy stuff. :)
And may I just say that I am so excited for spring. I am excited for Sloan's wedding! And warm weather and cute summer clothes. The end.
3.04.2013
Things I've Learned
Life is funny. As you get to new experiences along the way, you learn what you need to know. For example, when I was young, 18, and fresh out of high school, I had no idea that wearing a ring on your left ring finger meant you were engaged or married. No idea. So I start my bank job and often wear one of my cute little costume piece rings on that finger. One day a client makes a comment that my Mickey Mouse shaped ring made an interesting wedding ring. I was too surprised to tell them I wasn't married. I went home and asked my mom about it; she set me straight. By the time I was 21, living in Utah, and still not engaged to my boyfriend of almost 4 years, engagement/wedding rings were all I saw.
Pregnancy is the same way. Up until a few months ago, pregnancy was a far-in-the-future thing. All I knew about it was it takes 9 months and results in a baby. Once you start trying for it, though, you learn all about the world of ovulation and temping and how important it is to keep track of your periods and all the possible symptoms of early pregnancy and you get a million times more in touch with your body.
Trying for a baby is exhausting. It consumes your mind. Even if you tell yourself you won't be one of those women that crazily track when you are ovulating, you are. So you do what you can, and then you start what is called the 2WW (2 week wait). It's the awful two weeks where you wait for your period to start. If you get on the internet at this time, you find a plethora of women who are imagining what pregnancy symptoms they are experiencing. They go into excruciating detail. But you too are in the 2WW, so you drink it all up and play along. Then you start taking home pregnancy tests like a mad person. Every couple of days you are sneaking to the grocery store without your husband to spend another $10 on two more. Your husband has no idea that most your budget is going to these stupid tests that are being wasted because you're testing way too early anyways. So you see negative after negative, you're getting symptoms that feel like pregnancy but are most likely PMS, and then you're late and you're like, OHMYGOSH I MUST BE PREGNANT! Your pregnancy test taking rate increases exponentially. Still, you're getting negatives. Then your period starts and you cry and feel stupid for crying but can't help it. And then you resolve that this next month will be the month, and you start all over again. Secretly you start worrying that you are infertile and coming up with all sorts of diseases you have that just have gone undiagnosed.
Then one day when you're bored at home, you decide to take a test "just for fun" and you look at it after 3 minutes and you see that a faint line is appearing! You feel disbelief and euphoria and after seeing so many negatives, you almost don't believe the positive one. So you take a million more til you believe it yourself.
Then you come to terms with the fact that you are actually pregnant. What you've wanted more than anything for months is now a reality, and you have a mix of emotions. "Am I really ready to be a mom?" "Am I sure I wanted this?" "Do I really want to give up all my me time?" (Selfish I know)
Once you are pregnant, you move on to the next phase of learning. You learn just how common miscarriage is, and signs to look for. You learn the definition of morning sickness. No, it's not like the stomach flu. It's like your body has completely changed, and just doesn't like food anymore. Food smells gross and tastes even grosser. If you feel hungry you feel nauseous. Once you eat you feel even more nauseous. It's a lose-lose situation. You start looking into the far future of delivery, and freaking out. But clearly kids are worth it, because women keep doing it. That's what I'm telling myself anyways.
I sometimes wonder if telling everyone this early was a mistake. I read all these warnings of "Don't tell anyone til the 2nd trimester, if you have a miscarriage you will regret it!" Maybe. But the fact is, that's life. People lose babies. Sometimes they lose them after the first trimester. Sometimes they lose them after they are born. It doesn't make the baby any less real or important, so right now while I am pregnant with a healthy baby, I will be happy about it, and I enjoy having friends and family be happy with me.
The bottom line is, I can't wait for October to come! And to learn all the things I will learn by being a mom.
Pregnancy is the same way. Up until a few months ago, pregnancy was a far-in-the-future thing. All I knew about it was it takes 9 months and results in a baby. Once you start trying for it, though, you learn all about the world of ovulation and temping and how important it is to keep track of your periods and all the possible symptoms of early pregnancy and you get a million times more in touch with your body.
Trying for a baby is exhausting. It consumes your mind. Even if you tell yourself you won't be one of those women that crazily track when you are ovulating, you are. So you do what you can, and then you start what is called the 2WW (2 week wait). It's the awful two weeks where you wait for your period to start. If you get on the internet at this time, you find a plethora of women who are imagining what pregnancy symptoms they are experiencing. They go into excruciating detail. But you too are in the 2WW, so you drink it all up and play along. Then you start taking home pregnancy tests like a mad person. Every couple of days you are sneaking to the grocery store without your husband to spend another $10 on two more. Your husband has no idea that most your budget is going to these stupid tests that are being wasted because you're testing way too early anyways. So you see negative after negative, you're getting symptoms that feel like pregnancy but are most likely PMS, and then you're late and you're like, OHMYGOSH I MUST BE PREGNANT! Your pregnancy test taking rate increases exponentially. Still, you're getting negatives. Then your period starts and you cry and feel stupid for crying but can't help it. And then you resolve that this next month will be the month, and you start all over again. Secretly you start worrying that you are infertile and coming up with all sorts of diseases you have that just have gone undiagnosed.
Then one day when you're bored at home, you decide to take a test "just for fun" and you look at it after 3 minutes and you see that a faint line is appearing! You feel disbelief and euphoria and after seeing so many negatives, you almost don't believe the positive one. So you take a million more til you believe it yourself.
Then you come to terms with the fact that you are actually pregnant. What you've wanted more than anything for months is now a reality, and you have a mix of emotions. "Am I really ready to be a mom?" "Am I sure I wanted this?" "Do I really want to give up all my me time?" (Selfish I know)
Once you are pregnant, you move on to the next phase of learning. You learn just how common miscarriage is, and signs to look for. You learn the definition of morning sickness. No, it's not like the stomach flu. It's like your body has completely changed, and just doesn't like food anymore. Food smells gross and tastes even grosser. If you feel hungry you feel nauseous. Once you eat you feel even more nauseous. It's a lose-lose situation. You start looking into the far future of delivery, and freaking out. But clearly kids are worth it, because women keep doing it. That's what I'm telling myself anyways.
I sometimes wonder if telling everyone this early was a mistake. I read all these warnings of "Don't tell anyone til the 2nd trimester, if you have a miscarriage you will regret it!" Maybe. But the fact is, that's life. People lose babies. Sometimes they lose them after the first trimester. Sometimes they lose them after they are born. It doesn't make the baby any less real or important, so right now while I am pregnant with a healthy baby, I will be happy about it, and I enjoy having friends and family be happy with me.
The bottom line is, I can't wait for October to come! And to learn all the things I will learn by being a mom.
2.04.2013
January is Already Over!
This is one of the best, and worst, things about getting older. How much quicker time passes!
This past month:
So one of my goals this year is to get more organized, with life in general. I'm one of those people that if something isn't organized, it eats at the back of my brain.
I bought a book by a professional organizer that's a 12-month guide of how to get organized in a year. January was "Organizing the Kitchen", which my kitchen really needs because when we moved in, we were in a hurry to get things put away, and things got thrown in random cupboards. I'm already a little behind (ironic) because I should be done with this step, so I'm working on that this week. We'll see how it goes...
One of Cord and my goal's this year was to attend the temple once a month. We were a little late for January, but we went Saturday for the first time this year. We went to the Brigham City Temple, cuz we figured we are just as close as we are to Bountiful now. Little did we know that sessions are NOT every half hour; we got there at 5 and the next session wasn't til 6:30. So we decided to do sealings instead. We had a cool experience and got to learn something new; we did sealings for kids to their parents. Up until now I had no idea how that was done! It was neat.
This past month:
- Cord started his "School of Assembly" at work, which is basically just a six-week class where he learns how to do cool stuff.
- Sloan picked out her wedding dress, and we got to tag along.
- Garrett received his mission call! Quezon City, (I think) in the Philippines! He leaves May 22 (I think).
- I started my Natural Disasters class. Driving up to the U is fun.
So one of my goals this year is to get more organized, with life in general. I'm one of those people that if something isn't organized, it eats at the back of my brain.
I bought a book by a professional organizer that's a 12-month guide of how to get organized in a year. January was "Organizing the Kitchen", which my kitchen really needs because when we moved in, we were in a hurry to get things put away, and things got thrown in random cupboards. I'm already a little behind (ironic) because I should be done with this step, so I'm working on that this week. We'll see how it goes...
One of Cord and my goal's this year was to attend the temple once a month. We were a little late for January, but we went Saturday for the first time this year. We went to the Brigham City Temple, cuz we figured we are just as close as we are to Bountiful now. Little did we know that sessions are NOT every half hour; we got there at 5 and the next session wasn't til 6:30. So we decided to do sealings instead. We had a cool experience and got to learn something new; we did sealings for kids to their parents. Up until now I had no idea how that was done! It was neat.
1.08.2013
Christmas and a New Year
So Christmas came and went. It's kind of a relief to have it over, I'm not gonna lie. Now that I'm an adult the holidays are stressful! Lots of parties, cooking, spending money, and other stuff.
My parents got me and Cord matching PJ's to wear on Christmas Eve. We are adorable.
We went to dinner at Buca di Beppo's with Cord's family on Christmas Eve. It was so fun to see everyone! Cord's brother Chase and his family were in town as well, so it was especially fun to see them.
Christmas Day we spent with my family this year. We got lots of fun stuff; I got an awesome spa day that I'm using in a couple weeks, a crockpot, and a bunch of giftcards. Cord got a new Kinnect (or however you spell it) and a really nice new hunting backpack. We probably spent a lot of money on our puppies since we have no kids to buy for... ha ha.
Cord's birthday is New Years Eve, so his parents took us to dinner, and I got him a new X Box! (Our old one was dying)
New Years Eve was also the night my little sister Sloan got engaged! How exciting for her! The big day is May 11. I'm excited for her fiance Justin to join our family, he is a great guy.
I spent last week wedding dress shopping with Sloan. Fun! She found her dress. I can't post a picture of it, but here's the back of one she ALMOST got. Ha ha.
Pretty! Wedding dresses are amazing!
Anyways, this week is back to real life. Back to school, back to work, and back to bills. Bleh.
My parents got me and Cord matching PJ's to wear on Christmas Eve. We are adorable.
Christmas Day we spent with my family this year. We got lots of fun stuff; I got an awesome spa day that I'm using in a couple weeks, a crockpot, and a bunch of giftcards. Cord got a new Kinnect (or however you spell it) and a really nice new hunting backpack. We probably spent a lot of money on our puppies since we have no kids to buy for... ha ha.
Cord's birthday is New Years Eve, so his parents took us to dinner, and I got him a new X Box! (Our old one was dying)
New Years Eve was also the night my little sister Sloan got engaged! How exciting for her! The big day is May 11. I'm excited for her fiance Justin to join our family, he is a great guy.
I spent last week wedding dress shopping with Sloan. Fun! She found her dress. I can't post a picture of it, but here's the back of one she ALMOST got. Ha ha.
Anyways, this week is back to real life. Back to school, back to work, and back to bills. Bleh.
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